confidence? whats that

i just don't have enough confidence in myself to do anything right here.

sorry but that's just me.

let me know if you need me because i have no idea where i stand now and what to do already.

I've tried...

bus journey~ LOL

hellooooo!

haven been updating for a super super long time! LOL

so i'm gonna update abit now!

life hasn't really been really good to me, esp the army aspect. However, in the outside world, i've met some awesome people who just came into my life! (shall not elaborate on this).

Shall share my experience on the bus ytd!

damm cool.here it goes~

I was sleeping soundly on the bus, then suddenly i jolted up for no apparent reason.LOL

then there was this yound lady sitting beside me, dunno if she saw anot but i was too paiseh to sleep after that. Thus i decided to stay awake! thenthen, i noticed she was drawing smth on her notebook. I stared for awhile more then i realised she was drawing this lady in front of her. Her back view tgt with the back view of her 2 daughters. The drawing was turning out very nicely!

The thing that sparked the conversation was... There was this guy who kept coughing behind me, i think he didn't cover his mouth. Then she suddenly stopped drawing and looked at me. I was still sleepy then when she turn i got stunned LOL.

tai : O.O

lady : *says smth*

tai : *oh ya earpiece on.LOL* * removes ear piece*.... hmmm?

lady : *points to back* thats disgusting! :S

tai : oh.hahaha yea.(:

lady : *continues drawing*

tai : so...you're drawing the lady in front?

lady : ya

tai : *diam diam*

Then i waited for her to draw finish before asking whether she was still a student etc. Turned out drawing was her hobby since young, and she has taken this passion for art and shared it among her students! i think she taught like poly? i dunno.i rmb i heard the word poly.LOL

So i shared with her my experience with drawing when i was young, and that i gave up trying.lol

then she shared with me the different techniques etc etc. The conversation seemed so nice, one that i wouldn't want to end that fast but she had to alight alr. So we bid our farewells, she alighted and i went back to sleep. Before she alighted, she said to me "don't give up! i teach drawing and i don't believe that people can't draw, some are just more talented then others but everyone can draw." This line sort of inspired me in some way or another.

Drawing is just another one of the things in life that we do, so we shouldn't give up in anything that we do in life, because if others can make it, you can too! Maybe its just a matter of time that you get what you want, but if you never stop trying, you'll eventually get there someway somehow. So lets hold on to that little bit of hope, put in alittle more effort and perhaps that'll get us alittle closer to whatever we want in life.

yea.maybe i should start talking to random people on the bus.

so interesting.LOL

on the side * new post in lj for those who know who you are (:*

update again soon!

gonna meet ann to skate lata~ hoho

heyyooo! haven updated in awhile! busy in camp! hehe will update this post about my LSM (leader sergeant major) in the company one word to describe it - STRESSED ----------------------------- fill in soon! ------------------------------ &a msg from you everytime i end my training brings a smile to my face x)

heyyooo wasssuupp ppl!
no updates till now! ahahha

supposed to be confined till next friday!
but today we got to book out so we could all go home to take our passports cos they wanna be "cock sure" that the photocopy we gave matches the passport -.-

oh well but it sure feels good to be out again :D
GPMG firing this weekend D: sure will be tiring.
ASLC life ain't as slack at BSLC alr. =S

tight shedule.can't wait to pass out.although our term just started.LOL
Thailand in May! sure will hot till die. gg

off for a game of dota then its back to camp! :D
chao~
&the more i chat with you, the more i regret letting you go last time )':

funny how some people can misread some blog posts then post on the tagboard like they are some fucking god. put a fucking guest name talk like some fucking saint.

who the fuck are you to comment? not happy close window luh.retards
ah well the world needs some losers like them to entertain the rest xD

fml aslc

ah finally graduated from BSLC - basic section leader course
now off to pro term in ASLC - Advanced section leader course.

One of the most dreaded vocations ._.

sigh.dunno what to update
shall go back to sleep first.
think of things to update.hoho

goodnight ppl! (:

helloo!
back from zouk/phuture
power packed!
music at phuture much better.ahahha

but super packed with ppl ._.
can't even walk in properly
some girls were goood.hehe
but there was this one freaking i wun say fat la.not so bad.this big sized _____ whatever word you wanna insert in.kept knocking into me.so disgusting.zz

off to sleep now and skate later! :D
dead tired D:
4 more days till graduation from foundation phase.woohoo!! :D:D
sigh..