confidence? whats that

i just don't have enough confidence in myself to do anything right here.

sorry but that's just me.

let me know if you need me because i have no idea where i stand now and what to do already.

I've tried...

bus journey~ LOL

hellooooo!

haven been updating for a super super long time! LOL

so i'm gonna update abit now!

life hasn't really been really good to me, esp the army aspect. However, in the outside world, i've met some awesome people who just came into my life! (shall not elaborate on this).

Shall share my experience on the bus ytd!

damm cool.here it goes~

I was sleeping soundly on the bus, then suddenly i jolted up for no apparent reason.LOL

then there was this yound lady sitting beside me, dunno if she saw anot but i was too paiseh to sleep after that. Thus i decided to stay awake! thenthen, i noticed she was drawing smth on her notebook. I stared for awhile more then i realised she was drawing this lady in front of her. Her back view tgt with the back view of her 2 daughters. The drawing was turning out very nicely!

The thing that sparked the conversation was... There was this guy who kept coughing behind me, i think he didn't cover his mouth. Then she suddenly stopped drawing and looked at me. I was still sleepy then when she turn i got stunned LOL.

tai : O.O

lady : *says smth*

tai : *oh ya earpiece on.LOL* * removes ear piece*.... hmmm?

lady : *points to back* thats disgusting! :S

tai : oh.hahaha yea.(:

lady : *continues drawing*

tai : so...you're drawing the lady in front?

lady : ya

tai : *diam diam*

Then i waited for her to draw finish before asking whether she was still a student etc. Turned out drawing was her hobby since young, and she has taken this passion for art and shared it among her students! i think she taught like poly? i dunno.i rmb i heard the word poly.LOL

So i shared with her my experience with drawing when i was young, and that i gave up trying.lol

then she shared with me the different techniques etc etc. The conversation seemed so nice, one that i wouldn't want to end that fast but she had to alight alr. So we bid our farewells, she alighted and i went back to sleep. Before she alighted, she said to me "don't give up! i teach drawing and i don't believe that people can't draw, some are just more talented then others but everyone can draw." This line sort of inspired me in some way or another.

Drawing is just another one of the things in life that we do, so we shouldn't give up in anything that we do in life, because if others can make it, you can too! Maybe its just a matter of time that you get what you want, but if you never stop trying, you'll eventually get there someway somehow. So lets hold on to that little bit of hope, put in alittle more effort and perhaps that'll get us alittle closer to whatever we want in life.

yea.maybe i should start talking to random people on the bus.

so interesting.LOL

on the side * new post in lj for those who know who you are (:*

update again soon!

gonna meet ann to skate lata~ hoho